Day 4: Power is given, Control is taken

What is;
I was not allowed in the room for mediation because she said so.
The GAL doesn't believe I've been attacked by her.
The GAL doesn't believe the accusations are true.
My perception is powerful and I get to do work on it.
We spent money today for nothing to really have been changed.
My friends love me.

What I've learned;
To let go of my fears.
To let go of the control.
To trust my husbands ability to make decisions that will protect our family.
To stay out of other peoples business and stay in my own.
That I have the power to control what I feel, even if I feel like I don't.
I've learned to accept that money was spent and although it's not in writing, doesn't mean progress wasn't made.
To trust in Gods plan.
To receive the love that is right in front of me.
To be reminded that people may judge me but no matter what; I am still an honest, innocent, nurturing woman.

Gratitude:
1. I am grateful for the support and love I receive from family, professionals, friends, my husband and children.
2. I am grateful for the mediator/GAL remaining neutral.
3. I am grateful I'm aware that my perception is my downfall.
4. I am grateful I'm willing to change my perception, so I may clearly see.
5. I am grateful for Heavenly Father and his angels diligently working on this situation.
6. I am so grateful I figured out that I can change the situation.
7. I am grateful I was able to be in the building for Dustin to come and at least consult with me.
8. I am grateful Heavenly Father provided us with the money to pay for today just in time.

It's strange how quickly my heart can be filled with complete elation and then based on the circumstance of the situation, I can crash into despair and hopelessness. I wish to be able to remain grounded no matter what comes my way. I'm learning and I'm grateful to move through this learning process quickly.